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So yeah...I haven't updated here in a while. School has been crazy and I've never been so busy in my life! (I may be going insane

to be honest) 

But really I just wanted to write about my baby. 

12241644 10153549783080865 3554319628843905826 N by Blissful-Creations

I knew Tuesday was going to be a bad day. I woke up at 7am like normal, and I went to the closet to get dressed and I just stood there, staring blankly. I just felt...heavy. And I decided that I just wasn't going to do classes that day, so I went back to bed. I woke up around 12:30 and went to my desk and that's when my phone dinged and told me I had a voicemail from my mom. I listened to it and I could hear the tears in her voice. We have really really bad cell signal inside, so I had to go outside to call her back and I hadn't even put on a bra yet. (so rare for me). That's when she told me that she and my dad had to rush Ruby to the vet this morning because she'd just stopped breathing. I had to make her stop and tell me if Ruby was even okay...she was alive at that point and the vet was doing what she could. 
There was fluid build up around Ruby's heart and lungs, so they were giving her meds to help get rid of it. Kind of how they do with us. So my mom told me that they would have to call the vet back to find out later what would happen next. 
Ruby had a blowout in her lung. And she had a lot of cancer that we didn't know about...despite having taken her to the vet less than a year ago to check for exactly that. "No hope, won't make it through the night, postponing the inevitable." were the words the vet used. 
My mom brought Ruby home and I got to see her and talk to her on Facetime at around 6:30, then I had to get ready for my evening class. Less than 3 hours later my baby was gone. 

She's gone. It doesn't even seem real to me. How can she be gone? She had been such a huge part of my life for the past twelve years...how, within the space of one day, can she just be...gone? But she is. And it's hitting hard right now. One of the things I was looking forward to the most when I go home in three weeks was snuggling and holding my baby. But she's gone and I can't do that. I don't know what to do. All I know is that I hurt...so much right now. I wasn't able to be there to say goodbye, I couldn't hold her as she died. And the worst thing is that I know...in three weeks when I get to go home that it's going to be 100x worse because then it will be real. Ruby won't be there to chase the bugs that scare me, or beg for hotdogs, or wake me up far to early because she has to go outside. She won't be there for me as I cry and mourn. 

I love school, and I've made a lot of friends here and I'm part of an amazing community, but I'm still alone, and there's no one to just hug and cry. I could so use a hug right now, one from someone who doesn't mind if I just burst out in tears and can't stop. I really really want to go home right now. or sleep until I can go home. I couldn't even find the energy to go to class this morning. 


So yeah...I just...I needed to SAY things. A lot of people don't understand how a pet can cause such pain. 

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So yeah...I haven't updated here in a while. School has been crazy and I've never been so busy in my life! (I may be going insane

to be honest) 

But really I just wanted to write about my baby. 

12241644 10153549783080865 3554319628843905826 N by Blissful-Creations

I knew Tuesday was going to be a bad day. I woke up at 7am like normal, and I went to the closet to get dressed and I just stood there, staring blankly. I just felt...heavy. And I decided that I just wasn't going to do classes that day, so I went back to bed. I woke up around 12:30 and went to my desk and that's when my phone dinged and told me I had a voicemail from my mom. I listened to it and I could hear the tears in her voice. We have really really bad cell signal inside, so I had to go outside to call her back and I hadn't even put on a bra yet. (so rare for me). That's when she told me that she and my dad had to rush Ruby to the vet this morning because she'd just stopped breathing. I had to make her stop and tell me if Ruby was even okay...she was alive at that point and the vet was doing what she could. 
There was fluid build up around Ruby's heart and lungs, so they were giving her meds to help get rid of it. Kind of how they do with us. So my mom told me that they would have to call the vet back to find out later what would happen next. 
Ruby had a blowout in her lung. And she had a lot of cancer that we didn't know about...despite having taken her to the vet less than a year ago to check for exactly that. "No hope, won't make it through the night, postponing the inevitable." were the words the vet used. 
My mom brought Ruby home and I got to see her and talk to her on Facetime at around 6:30, then I had to get ready for my evening class. Less than 3 hours later my baby was gone. 

She's gone. It doesn't even seem real to me. How can she be gone? She had been such a huge part of my life for the past twelve years...how, within the space of one day, can she just be...gone? But she is. And it's hitting hard right now. One of the things I was looking forward to the most when I go home in three weeks was snuggling and holding my baby. But she's gone and I can't do that. I don't know what to do. All I know is that I hurt...so much right now. I wasn't able to be there to say goodbye, I couldn't hold her as she died. And the worst thing is that I know...in three weeks when I get to go home that it's going to be 100x worse because then it will be real. Ruby won't be there to chase the bugs that scare me, or beg for hotdogs, or wake me up far to early because she has to go outside. She won't be there for me as I cry and mourn. 

I love school, and I've made a lot of friends here and I'm part of an amazing community, but I'm still alone, and there's no one to just hug and cry. I could so use a hug right now, one from someone who doesn't mind if I just burst out in tears and can't stop. I really really want to go home right now. or sleep until I can go home. I couldn't even find the energy to go to class this morning. 


So yeah...I just...I needed to SAY things. A lot of people don't understand how a pet can cause such pain. 
Chrome the Fox by Blissful-Creations
Chrome the Fox
Pulled out my hook and yarn a couple of weeks ago and created this little cutey! 
The pattern is from: www.spoolofsunshine.blogspot.com 
I didn't follow the pattern exactly however... I just used it as a guideline and inspiration. Instead of doing the head and body in two separate pieces I did them as one continuous piece, and I have to say that I very much preferred the outcome, it's also much more stable in my opinion. And your eyes do not deceive you, he is black, white and gray. 
I really do love the look :D 
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  • How long have you been on DeviantArt?

    I am just two days shy of having been on DA for seven years! (holy cow I didn't realize it'd been that long) 


  • What does your username mean?

    Well, It's a play off of my own name, Bliss. When I was 15 my mom wanted to start a small business and this is one of the names she came up with, and I just decided to use it when I joined, though I had no idea what kind of art I'd be making and I'm pretty sure not all of it as been 'blissful' I have considered changing it to Crochet-Bliss since that tends to be more of my focus these days. 

  • Describe yourself in three words.

    Loving, sensitive, introverted

  • Are you left or right handed?

    Righty!


  • What was your first deviation?

    Well, I'm pretty sure my very first deviation is no longer available but this one is the oldest, submitted in 2010

  • Will You Let HIM by Blissful-Creations
  • What is your favorite type of art to create?

    Hmm, hard question. I would say written things, but I'm not sure that's what you want. So it would have to be crochet art things now.

  • If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be?

    I don't even have to think about this one. Digital painting, both in a realism style and a totally cutesy chibi style as well. 

  • What was your first favorite?

    I'm not really sure, but this one might be the closest;

  • Lechon4 by RaMakuha

  • What type of art do you tend to favourite the most?

    I think I'm about even between, Stock, Crochet, and Digital art

  • Who is your all-time favorite deviant artist?

    I have two! GillianIvy and DaydreamersDesigns Both are extraordinary artists and very awesome people. 

  • If you could meet anyone on DeviantArt in person, who would it be?

    I'm skittish about meeting people from online sometimes lol but I think I'd like to meet GillianIvy Sometime, and gee231205 and missimoinsane They are all pretty awesome women and I'd like to hang with them IRL sometime. 

  • How has a fellow deviant impacted your life?

    I would count GillianIvy as a friend because she has showed me and continues to show me that even two people with drastically different lifestyles, backgrounds and faiths can still be friends and not tear each other apart. She has always encouraged me to be me even when others did the opposite and that has had a big impact. 

  • What are your preferred tools to create art?

    Crochet and yarn, otherwise it would be a camera, or photoshop *nods* 

  • What is the most inspirational place for you to create art?

    In front of my computer usually...I get a lot of inspiration from others works, and I love to listen to music or watch netflix when I create

  • What is your favorite DeviantArt memory?

    When I made and posted my first journal skin! Though I'm sooo not as good at it as my teacher is, I really enjoyed learning and i'm glad that I got a fair chance to figure out if it's something I would like to do more of....and I know that I CAN do it if I want to. 

    #deviantartistquestionnaire


  • thought I'd do this little thing since I'd seen so many of them in my notifications. 
SO MANY NOTIFICATIONS AND CHANGES!!! -slinks back to the message box-
At least I'm pretty sure I'm alive and I haven't become a zombie just yet! Though...that would be kind of awesome. 

I started a my 3rd college semester a couple of weeks ago. This year has been CRAZY so far. 

I miss making art though and interacting with all of you fine people, so I'm going to try and get back into this between papers and assignments and such. and I might upload something soon. ^^ 

How IS everyone? Let me know what's going on in your lives...I really wanna know!!! 
13 Hearts by Blissful-Creations
13 Hearts
Hearts hearts hearts!!! So many hearts! I spent most of last week making these cute little hearts... I gave the bottom three to my roommates and the other 10 I hung up on the bulletin board in the laundry room yesterday...cause...I really don't need 10 hearts lol
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PiixXxiiE Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thanks for the fave! shrek-la 
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Luchusus Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2015
Thanks for the fav ^^
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CatsWire Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thank you for the fave! :)
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Horshi2003 Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2015  Hobbyist
thanks for the fave
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WritterInTheArtHat Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2015
Thank you so much for the llama :3
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